#if this isn't zenith idk what is

[rosietrace]

[ Zenith Devi idol profile ]

"If the show must go on, then let's give it everything we've got!"

Full Name: Zenith Devi

Japanese Name: ゼニス デビ

Romaji: Zenisu Debi

Stage name: Zen/(?)carus/Icarus

V/A(Speaking voice): Ayumu Murase(村瀬 歩)

Age: 20

Birthday: January 24

Horoscope: Aquarius

Height: 164 cm

Hair color: Black and green

Eye color: Light green

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(Former) Idol Division: [ Diasomnia division ]

(Former) Idol Group: [ (!)nsomniac ]

(Former) Position: Lead vocalist

Current occupation: Music producer & idol

[ Singing Voice Claims:

Eyedress(EN)

Fujii Kaze(JP/日本語)

Felix Lee(KR) ]

Likes: Writing poetry & songs, music, Victoria, modeling with (Victoria, Yuuta & Miren), singing, gossiping, the podcast with Ellis, Victoria's Grammy collection /j

Dislikes: Paparazzi, false rumors, anyone badmouthing his friends, (all forms) harassment, Victoria's grandmother; Grimhilde, off-key notes, badly written poetry and songs, broken strings on his instruments

Hobbies: Spending time with Victoria, songwriting, poetry/haiku writing, gossiping, singing, playing his instruments, fine-tuning his songs, reading, writing

Talent(s): Flexible, observant, playing various instruments, singing, writing, sign language, agility

Flaw(s): Overprotective, sarcastic, easily angered & annoyed, (occasionally) arrogant, ignorant (?), reckless

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[ Relationships with others ]

Victoria 💎 Playful & loving, they treat each other like brother and sister

Malleus 🐉 Neutral & respectful, they're on average terms after Zen left the group

Lilia 🦇 Respectful & friendly, Lilia's the one who spoke to Zen the most after he left

Silver 🗡️ Casual & respectful, they had an underrated friendship but are slightly closer than before after Zen left

Sebek ⚡ Awkward & professional, Sebek's still upset with Zen for leaving and they don't talk much anymore

Chizuko 🖤 Respectful & casual, Chizuko finds Zen to be endearing despite his chaotic type of persona

Ellis ❤️ Playful & friendly, VERY chaotic when they're together but it feels like heaven when they have a duet

Miren 💙 Respectful & casual, Miren was surprised to learn about Zen and Victoria's relationship but doesn't treat Zen any differently despite that

Yuuta 👑 Friendly & professional, Zen makes jokes about simping for Yuuta and they give each other vocal tips

Juvia 🪞 Friendly & respectful, Juvia likely danced to a lot of Zen's songs and they'd get along with flying colors if they collab

Carol 🍀 Professional & neutral, he doesn't have much to say about Carol but he finds her to be respectful

Mayuu⌚ Professional & friendly, Zen regularly makes jokes about how Mayuu's going to eventually go insane and they just let him do that because well- she can't really say anything without his stans thinking she's out to get him

[ Additional Trivia ]

Ayumu Murase voices Venti from [ Genshin Impact ]

Eyedress is an artist known for his unique vocals and songs such as [ Jealousy ] & [ Romantic lover ]

Fujii Kaze is most known on platforms such as TikTok for his song [ Shinunoga E-wa/死ぬのがい(い?)わ ]

Felix Lee is a member of the Kpop group [ Stray Kids ]

Zenith received his first Grammy at age 16 and is regarded as one of the youngest Grammy awardees alongside Victoria Shard

Known in his fanbase as one of the most cutthroat yet fun loving music producers in the industry, as well as being an idol solo artist

His debut album was called "Waxed feathers"

He named himself (?)carus with the style of his old group's name-style and to reference the story of Icarus

Has recently started a podcast with Ellis from (Co)-connect where they discuss the life of an idol and other topics such as the existence of god

Unlike most idols in the industry, Zen doesn't dance, but rather sings on-stage while playing one of the instruments that's included in his songs

His vocal range is known to be rather unique, as one would never expect someone like Zen to be able to have such a low voice during certain parts of his songs

Has collaborated with Victoria more than once, and has been featured in two of her songs in her latest album 'Silent Games'

One of the most 'mysterious' idols because of how little information is given about his personal life outside of his birthday

Many newer fans in his fanbase were surprised to learn that he was older than Victoria by a couple months

Also a bit of a fashion icon and usually wears dark colors mixed with bright colors to compliment them as accents

The trio known as Yuuta, Zen and Victoria is fucking iconic with how funny the three are together

Is a bit uncomfortable during podcasts when the fans call Victoria 'mommy' understandable tbh

He and Ellis have a little inside joke about having a ghost hunting show

Helps out Chizuko and Miren improve in their bass and guitar skills

Has been mistaken for a girl numerous times, but it doesn't bother him and became an inside joke in the fandom

Has got way too many 'Zen being a dumbass' compilations that feature him and Ellis💀

Literally anyone who's heard him sing would fucking freeze every time he transitions into a hilariously deep voice

Has almost the same number of Grammys with Victoria

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Tagging: @starry-night-rose @authoruio @windbornearchon @fumikomiyasaki @nem0-nee @sakuramidnight15 @geminiiviolets @crazyyanderefangirlfan @twsted-princess @knights-escort

[lynx-doodles-indie-games]

minor and moderate worldless spoilers ahead! i really like this game so please play it so you can have the full context of my stupidity

this upload's gonna be a bit different, since i wanna talk about a Very Very Stupid Thing i did when i played worldless last month, and hopefully some of yall can enjoy me being the butt of the joke idk. minor spoilers are ahead, but i'll put the moderate spoilers under the cut below.

also because there isn't a better place to put this, the colors i used throughout these doodles are from sweetavery's zenith, it's an impeccable fit for this game!

so, picked up worldless last month and yet another game pestered me about playing on a controller as opposed to keyboard. "how dare!" i shouted at my computer, "for i have bested the pantheon of hallownest in hollow knight and make for a fine accomplice in rain world's jolly co-op with just a keyboard! i don't need a controller!"

well, to absolutely no one's surprise, the default keyboard layout SUCKS. but that's nothing a little rebinding can't fix. i messed around in the menus, experimented with what made the game feel mildly more comfortable to play, which worked for about twenty minutes.

so i haven't talked much about the story, yeah? well that's because this wrestling with the controls took up so much of my attention that i could barely clock in what was happening! so that when the above happened, well… you can see how well that went out.

i actually put the game down out of frustration because i was really excited for it and yet the controls were so obstinate. this was my first impression, and it… was not a great one, you can tell.

about a week later i was bored out of my mind and picked up the game again. i'd wondered if i should've started a new save or picked up where i left off. i wish i had done the former. because…

yeah, i'd gone off the intended path and ignored the objective because i'd literally forgotten what the game had told me it wanted me to do.

that's as much i'm willing to divulge to the people who want to play the game with as few spoilers as possible. moderate spoilers below.

rest assured, i'm getting a pair of controllers later this month. the transition is gonna be… rocky. i'd been meaning to get some for being able to play horizon zero dawn and hyper light drifter and other games of that caliber, but this experience with worldless urged that along faster. (i am not looking forward to relearning how to play hollow knight and rain world on a controller)

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back to the game:

so yeah, even at this point, i had not connected the dots that the guy who beat me up was the same guy i was chasing across the map was the same guy i saw in that apparition was the same guy currently crouched in front of me. i get "early-game amnesia" every so often (ask me sometime about my experience with shovel knight this summer), but worldless has been the worst example of it happening to me, not helped by the awful controls distracting me in the opening, not playing it for a long enough time for my memory of the first twenty minutes to erode, and then returning to my old save file instead of starting up a new one.

i somehow blearghed my way into resolving the conflict peacefully, since i'd known the battles are a bit like puzzles and this one had given me the capability of using wisp's cry. so i did, thinking it was simply the resolution for the battle.

and this. this took me off-guard. but, obviously, not in the way the devs had expected. i didn't know who this guy was so suddenly playing as him was rather confusing.

which is a shame, really. i wish i'd restarted the game instead of picked up from my current save. i wish i could erase my memories of the game and replay it afresh (but with more optimal controls). i wish i'd gotten a controller before playing worldless.

but what's done is done. i wrestled the controls into something somewhat manageable. in the span of less than two weeks of active play, i'd beaten the game, found the secret boss, ascended the path of determination, and overcome the ultimate trial all on a keyboard.

dw tho, i eventually bonded with my beloved deuteragonist (dubbed him "coal" in contrast with the original deuteragonist "wisp"). i've drawn a ton of them in the past couple of weeks and i'm hoping to share em soon. gotta get the word about this game out somehow :D

idk how to end this lol

[fyrets]

May 2024 KS Check In Review

So I guess I'm doing these now. Let's get into it.

Nephrune, the alpha reward fauna, genuinely goes so hard. I have no notes it's cool. Glad it'll be available to people who don't make it into alpha later down the line.

Still not the biggest fan of the woolen set, mostly the shoes and lack of socks. It doesn't look comfortable at all. I feel like the pants should've gone all the way down to the shoes if we weren't gonna get socks at all. Like it looks poorly fitted y'know? Idk.

Regal set is probably my favorite so far but something about some aspects of the design kinda makes me scratch my head a little. Mostly the tail thing, I recognize that the shape makes the most "sense" but it looks off to me. If that makes any sense.

Also I think it was silly to use a light colored cat to show off the whole set but then in the individual item showcase they just darkened the base cat to show off the sparkle thing. Very much a nitpick but idk it bothers me for some reason. Definitely being delusional here but it kind of smells of colorism, To Me.

Never particularly cared for the necromantic cloak but I feel like this is a massive downgrade from the KS era design (shown on right). I don't like that it's all tattered now, it makes the cloak feel like it was designed with a particular character archetype in mind, WHICH ISN'T NECESSARILY BAD, but it does make it significantly less versatile. The change to the ribcage design is also a massive disappointment. The bird skull is a nice touch, but doesn't really do anything for me. To be fair the cloak was always gonna be in "probably won't use" territory for me but idk now I'm even less likely to use it because I kind of think it just looks worse now. Maybe seeing it on other poses (like snowfoot v, which is literally the best possible pose for a cloak accessory) might ease me up to it.

Dynamic layering of accessories is genuinely epic. I don't know of any petsite that has been able to do this. We're gonna be eating sooo good in PB.

Sol site theme is lovely, makes me excited to see other borough themes. I hope Zenith is to my liking.

Daily Duties and Errands and other gameplay things are flying over my head I don't really care about alladat.

Maps! Maps are cool! Political and climate versions are quite scrumptious! What is that western isle!!!!!!

Have hit the image limit and that's pretty much all I care about right now. Overall a pretty mid update for me, which we must remember does not mean bad! It just didn't do much of anything for me.

[quillpokebiology]

So, I've asked around a lot, and it seems like not a single professor on here is willing to help me make heads or tails of my Marshadow… Which I suspect is due to them not wanting to risk their professional reputation on a pokemon thought to not even exist just a few months ago.

I figured since you're a student, you'd subscribe to no such amounts of caution. (I'm also getting a bit desperate)

Basically, I'd like a bit of an analysis of my Marshadow, if you can manage that. I need to know what makes it tick, and specific needs that go beyond those of normal ghost type Pokemon, as it's far from normal (even though I personally don't consider it an actual Mythical, just rare).

If not, I'll look elsewhere. Again. But thanks for your time.

P.s. I'll send in samples if you need them for testing or something, idk, I'm not a doctor. But the little guy(?) drools, sheds, and isn't potty trained yet so it should be easy to get samples from it.

Hello! I'd love to answer this! I've never cared or seen a marshadow in real life, and I'd love for you to send me samples of its DNA! If you can, just mail it to Uva-Naranja academy! But since I don't know much about its DNA and how it's body works, this will mostly talk about behavior.

(I may or may not have gotten the info from the science part of the black market, but that's not important)

(Also tell those professors to grow up. You can't be right about everything; the whole point of science to is to build on to what you already may or may not know)

Marshadow

(Art by Pixiv)

Marshadow is a "mythical" pokemon native to the Alola region. They're fighting/ghost type, which is a really unique and rare typing!

It's thought that this pokemon was a myth, until a scientist in Alola discovered it in the flesh. The reason it took so long to find these pokemon is because they hid in the shadows for so long. It saw pokemon fighting and practiced their fighting techniques, making them excellent in combat. They also do a lot of shadow boxing, do don't mind it if it starts punching the air for no reason.

They seem to be extremely shy, as they've hid in the shadows for so long. Your marshadow might dissappear for a couple of days because it's hiding somewhere, or it might even be your shadow. Who knows.

Zenith Marshadow

When angered or in, marshadow goes into a Zenith Form. It becomes a lot more powerful and dangerous in this form.

Care

This part is mostly for the asker.

Your marshadow seems young. He isn't potty trained, right? I suggest getting him a litter box, or something similar. Let him no that that's where it's supposed to do it's business, and reward then when they don't have an accident. Imagine it's like raising a child basically.

You could teach it how to use the toilet. I just suggested litterbox since it'll instinctively know that it's supposed to cover it, and it'll be less weird.

I'd suggest keeping it out of overly sunny or bright areas, as well as populated areas. Due to how shy they are, places with a lot of people and pokemon can make them feel overwhelmed and panicky. Too much sun can harm its eyes, and at noon, the shadows will be smaller, and it might not have anywhere good to hide.

They can eat, but not as often as other pokemon. Feeding it once a week should be enough.

I don't know what will tick off your marshadow personally. This is really all the info I have on it right now. But I'd be happy for you to tell me any new things you figure out. Best of luck to caring for it!

[charmixpower]

Oh dear, a Sirenix wish

This will be normal

Tecna: I wish the people of Zenith feel connected to all the worlds of the magic dimension, and understand that we are all one

That first part is more normal??? It's not directly changing anyone's mental state it's adding a feeling?? It's like giving someone magical empathy. Not as bad as what comes next. The second part, no matter how good the result and intention is, is literally straight up mind control. It is actively changing people's mental state and that is extremely fucked up

Idk, encouraging people care about the rest of the magical dimension is a lesser weird bad. Like yeah your making them know about this thing, but your not removing their free will in any sense. People can still choose to simply not act on these feelings. Maybe because I have mood swings and feelings I literally can't control I find it less invasive. You can refuse to act on them, it's when she starts fucking with people's critical thinking when she starts REALLY infringing on people's free will. The wording "understand" implies that these won't appear like intrusive thoughts, but like a world view

Unless I'm interrupting this wrong and it's ALL a direct world view shift with is just;;;; Forcing people to hold the same opinion as you is EXTREMELY fucked up

The way Winx does mind control is so fucked up. Usually the person under mind control is still there under the mind control, and their just being super seceded by another force. Then Winx comes and is like "No. Mind control directly changes the person under control" you CANT return to who you were before because it changed YOU and the idea of doing that to a entire planet gives me the heebie-jeebies

Your thoughts, your opinions, your perception of the world isn't yours own anymore. It's so creepy to me

Children shows always do such existentially fucked up shit because it's simpler, but thinking about it for more than two seconds is so creepy

[the-whispers-of-death]

hey :) wanna know something cool? i am about to assault you with more of my ocs pls tell me to stop if im bothering you

Selga used to be completely normal. literally just a guy. he was a janitor at the groups base. then "events" happened and Selga became well... Selga the barely human critter we know him as today

while at the begining stages of making Void i thought about making it so he doesn't have skin because under his clothes he wears bandages but i scrapped the idea because it would be unrealistic and impossible for him to function so i left it at him having severe burn scars instead

all the members of the merc group were branded with a hot iron on one of their hands and on their backs. it's how commander "marked" his soldiers as his. the group is called IRIS so the brand was in the shape of an eye symbol with the iris and pupil in the middle and the outline itself going around it to make a sort of flower (idk how to describe it)

Johan has a "brother" (it's literally a lab clone) called Zenith who isn't allowed around people most of the time but is sometimes used as a "sanitar" in the bases hospital when patients get too rowdy (Zeniths existence is interchangeable sometimes he exists sometimes he doesn't depends on my mood)

I didn't peg Selga as someone who was a janitor but that's an interesting thing to know about him. Selga being normal is something new.

Poor Void, having severe burn scars, hurts my heart. (Sarabi's staring at me because I gave him severe burn scars all along his right side.)

Not all of them being branded. There's not a single moment where I'm not glad commander is dead.

I shudder to think about what Johan does to Zenith when he does exist. I'm taking him away from Johan actually, he's mine now. I'd treat him better.

[spellshite]

BG3 Masterlist because yes

Since I'm brainrotting too much about BG3 I thought it'd be a good idea to make a masterlist to find stuff because I either tag messily or Tumblr search function would just not work.

Tags I use:

#bg3 shitpost <- gaming tag? kinda? i use it for all my runs-related things and commentary

#tav: kylech <- things about Kylech

#durge: hrodak <- things about Hrodak

#durge: xarann <- things about Xarann

#tav: uruz <- things about Uruz

#durge: jaws <- things about Jaws

#tav: zenith <- things about Zenith

#tav: lukyen <- things about Lukyen

#tav: tav'keth <- things about Tav'keth

#tav: n'kosana <- things about N'kosana

#my bg3 screenshots <- as it says on the tin (sometimes I put "screenshot")

#my gif edit <- pretty clear

some older posts might be missing the tav/durge tag :( I'll fix it one day, I swear!

(some of) Art I made and shared on my art side blog (@demondepresso)

Sceleritas Fel screenshot redraw [x]

The locket "for papa" [x]

Uruz and (fake) Cherise screenshot redraw [x]

Kiss in the Sharran Temple [x]

Woe! Tadpole be upon ye! [x]

The Spider's Queen Embrace [x]

But isn't it nice? Not to know? [x] (not me giving it a good title after ages rip)

Xarann and Barcus meeting the first time [x]

Hrodak, cover them up slut! [x]

Stop eating the suspicious meat [x]

Astarion and Hrodak first meeting: how it really went [x]

Wizard Stuff [x]

Dror Ragzlin (my very first BG3 Fanart lmao) [x]

PLAYLISTS!!! (bad people only, sorry not sorry)

BLOOD SINGS TO MY SINUSES (Orin the Red) [x]

The Devil You Know (Raphael) [x]

Death is Not the End (Ketheric Thorm) [x]

Bane of my existence (Enver Gortash) [x]

Vampire Lord's Ascension (Cazador Szarr) [x]

Gifs I made: (reverse chronological order bc I messed up when I made the list and I didn't want to redo it again)

I procrastinated and ended up with 1 gif of N'kosana [x]

Gortash (and a bit of Durgetash) for y'all [x]

Jaws Chosen of Bhaal [x]

Jaws (sort of intro gifs? idk) [x]

Bad (Bhaal) Ending Xarann [x]

Bad (Bhaal) Ending Hrodak [x]

Xarann x Gale kisses [x]

Kylech x Wyll kisses [x]

Looked fun [x]

Oh no, not again. [x]

Wandering hand [x]

Stop licking the damn thing! [x]

Like a kitten roaring at a tiger [x]

May I kiss you? (self-indulgent OCxOrigin gifs) [x]

You little scoundrel, you. [x]

Xarann telling Gronag to fetch the bone [x]

Not with you, to be clear [x]

Disciple Z'rell [x]

I won't bite [x]

Mixed gifs (Xarann, Disciple Z'rell, Gale saying "I love you") [x]

Gif mix (Xarann petting Owlbear cub, Shadowheart, Gale, Xarann playing the Spider's Lyre, Xarann and Kar'niss, Kar'niss, Flaming Fist Marcus Landing) [x]

Gale wants to wake up from this nightmare [x]

Xarann pets the Owlbear Cub [x]

If you're expecting me to drop to my knees before you, forget it. [x]

My Tav/Durge infodumping and answers to ask games:

Tavs/Durges Character Sheets (NEW!!) [x]

What is the first thing people notice about their appearance? [x]

About Guardian's appearance [x]

Tav/Durge introduction like the Origin characters [x]

Tav/Durge character sheets [x]

5 Songs 4 Outfits tag game - Xarann [x]

Is your Tav responsible with money? [x]

Ramble about Dream Visitor's appearances and Uruz [x]

Get to Know: Uruz [x]

Get to Know: Xarann [x]

Get to Know: Hrodak [x]

Get to Know: Kylech [x]

Act 1/2/3 looks? idk how to call this [x]

Thoughts on a similarity between Xarann and Araj [x]

Uruz and the locket [x]

DnD Uruz becoming BG3 Uruz [x]

Tav Question(s) Act One [x]

Cooking headcanons [x]

How much does your Tav change over the course of the story? [x]

Tav Asks (6, 11, 19) Kylech, Hrodak, Xarann [x]

Hrodak, answer 4 Baldur's Gate 3 Development Game [x]

Tav as companion game (1, 6, 15) Kylech, Hrodak, Xarann [x]

Random:

If Evil Why Hot??? [x]

Jaws the Durge screenshot [x]

LET ME SOLO HER [x]

Mizora Flesh-to-Stone'd [x]

My Tavs&Durges romance moodboards [x]

My Tavs and Durges as text posts [x]

Uruz and Dream Visitor screenshots [x]

Post fireworks factory shenanigans [x]

Two flavours of Bhaalspawn [x]

"I'm a Bhaalspawn" (Hrodak, Xarann) [x]

vibe chart? [x]

watch me pepe-silviaing about the rats in the Gauntlet [x]

"You bleat well enough as it is" [x]

Xarann & friends hate Sceleritas [x]

Fetch the bone, but as screenshots instead [x]

Ask Games I reblogged:

Get to know your Tav [x]

Baldur's Gate 3 Character Development Questions [x]

26 Questions for your Tav as a Companion [x]

20 Tav QOTDs [x]

[floralovebot]

Hope you don’t mind me asking but…What do you think Riven is supposed to be in terms of coded Race or ethnicity?

When it comes to winx club and what race each character is supposed to be (or at least be coded as), its genrrally not very hard to guess. Like the winx are obvious because they’re directly modeled after real celebrities, but the specialists are a little less obvious, though still fairly easy to guess. Sky and Timmy are generally assumed to be white, it’s fairly certain amongst fans that Helia is supposed to be Asian, Nabu is South Asian, and Brandon…well he’s a little on the ambiguous side but I’ve seen a good amount of people headcanon him as Latino….and y’know what…as a latina, I’ll take it along with the canon rep that Flora (and MAYBE Stella??? I say that cause Cameron Diaz is of Cuban descent on one side, so it’s possible Stella could be read as a white passing/half Hispanic/Latina) gives us.

However with all that, Riven is really unclear to me. I see headcanons vary from him being asian, latino, white, or a mix of at least two of those…and Idk what to think tbh.

LOVE THIS

And honestly, this might be a disappointing answer, but the truth is that his race is fully ambiguous in every way possible. Sometimes fans say "ambiguous", but what they really mean is "definitely true, but not explicitly canon". For example, Nabu is South Asian in that kind of ambiguous way, where it is very, very clear, but not explicitly stated. (And let's be honest, the only reason some fans consider Nabu ambiguous is because he's dating Aisha, a black woman, and they can't imagine a non-black dark-skinned man dating a black woman, but I digress...)

Riven's race, however, is actually ambiguous in its true definition.

We don't know what planet Riven is from. It's never stated or even implied. We don't know where his family is from. It's never stated or implied. We don't know anything about his culture, how he was raised (outside of likely poor and single-parented), where he lived, if he had any friends, etcetc. Compared to other characters, we really don't know much about Riven's background other than his mom left him.

Sometimes people try to figure it out. Some people use his eye shape as evidence for him being Asian, despite the fact that other canonically non-Asian characters also have more narrow eyes (Flora being the best example). Some people use his hair color as evidence that he's from Zenith, but that really means nothing when it comes to his race, and Tecna being white isn't a good defense for that. Some people use his eye color being purple and Musa's eye color being purple as evidence that he is Asian, but considering Helia's eye color is blue and there are most definitely non-Asian characters with purple eyes too, that also means nothing. He never wears culturally significant or identifiable clothing. And no, I don't think his British flag shirt is anything more than Rainbow trying to make them look fashionable and trendy.

Riven's race is truly ambiguous. His racial identity can actually be read in more than one way. And honestly, I think this lends itself to a very impactful reading on his character as a whole. We know that Riven didn't have the best childhood. We know that he doesn't have a relationship with his mother, and he never brings up his father or anyone else in his family. It's very heavily implied that Riven's relationship with his family is rocky at best and nonexistent at worst.

Now obviously, in real life, someone having a bad relationship with their family doesn't just erase their genetics. That's true even in winx club - Musa has a fraught relationship with her father for the better part of season 1, but we can still tell she's East Asian. That being said, winx club is a fictional, animated show with drawn and intentionally designed characters. Just like Flora is designed to look sweet and girly, Riven is designed to look mysterious and angsty.

I truly believe that as an audience, we're not supposed to know much about his past, and in winx club, that includes his family, his planet, and subsequently, his race and ethnicity. Riven can be seen as Asian, White, mixed, Latino, Hispanic, mostly whatever you want, and that's on purpose. Whether or not that decision is Good is debatable, but I truly do think that was Rainbow's intention with him. He's meant to be seen as mysterious in season 1, and for Rainbow, that typically translates to knowing as little about a character's true self as possible.

Personally, I do prefer asian!Riven, but that is fully just a headcanon, and any "implication" I could find in canon is going to be dubious and easy to interpret differently. To bring back a previous point, I could say his eye shape is proof that he's Asian, and many people have, but that would mean that Flora, Palladium a la glow up design, Lucy, and Thoren are all also Asian. I could try to say that him having purple eyes is proof that he's Asian, but that would mean that Roxy is also Asian (which I would actually love but considering both of her parents are canonically white, she isn't). And tbh, these are the only solid, consistent things about his character that could be seen as proof of him being Asian coded, and that's not great in comparison to characters like Musa, Nabu, or Helia. Like,, there's a reason people make entire essays on Nabu's hair, clothing, parents, class, magic, etc, and not just one-off posts about the shape of his eyes. There's a lot to work with and a lot about him that actually correlates to being South Asian. Only being able to cite Riven's eye shape is pretty shoddy when you compare him to all the other "ambiguous" characters who have a lot more evidence supporting their coded race.

Trying to make any I'm Right statement about his race or ethnicity is always going to fail, at least regarding the first three seasons, because he doesn't have any significant or consistent racial coding. Even his characterization doesn't mean much when most, if not all, of the tropes he fits into are not race-specific, and any racial stereotype he could have can all be written off as him filling the angsty/minor antagonist/redeemed character tropes.

Anyway, again I realize this probably isn't the answer you wanted. I would love to do a full meta explaining the intricacies of his racial/ethnic coding, but he really just,,, doesn't have that. And again, we could totally have a discussion on whether or not this is even Okay; if Rainbow making his race ambiguous so he seems more mysterious is Wrong or Offensive in some way. But the truth is that Riven's race is ambiguous, and that's on purpose.

[tarmaarn]

Thoughts on Horizon Burning Shores. Spoilers ahead.

Cross posted from discord

Uhhhh 6/10????

Like I had some minor writing problems with HFW but the same writing problems were worse in burning shores. Granted, I LOVED seeing Aloys growth as a person here.

It was too short to let me get endeared to any characters and I was left wanting more in a bad way???

We had minimal side quests, the whole compliance thing seemed like it was getting set up for a big quest chain for example then was wrapped up so quickly I was left going "Wait I want to see more of that?"

Every side quest left me going "Wait. That's it?" And I remember when I first played Frozen Wilds I had a great time and wanted more in a GOOD way I was eager for the next game to explore Ban-Ur which obviously didn't happen.

Idk. Zero Dawn and Frozen Wilds feels like home and comfy and I love it and FW and BS just feel like a really nice vacation home that I love but it isn't home??? Does that make sense?

As far as mechanics go I did love the Zenith gauntlet and all the new moves, you saw in person how much I spam the grapple attack lmao so I loved the new stuff there. Horus fight was a ton of fun and I loved it and 10/10 would fight again. Fuck the frogs. Hate them all my homies hate the frog machine.

The big thing everyone is talking about is Seyka and man, with how short the DLC felt I don't think I had enough time with her? I don't wanna say the writing felt forced cause I enjoyed what was there but it was certainly something. Someone I follow, forget who now, said it was written like a summer blockbuster romance where things just happen and that feels like a good way of it to me. It isn't bad, but I didn't love it. I COULD love it with more time??? We love the biloy/gayloy rep tho.

[cheemken]

You know what? I didn’t even think of the relationship between the Legendary Dragons and their hero’s

Like are they just using Iris, Hilda, and Hilbert to get what they need? Or do they actually enjoy the Unova Kids company and wish to keep them around, even when they eventually overthrow Arceus? Bonus that they’re also strong trainers that’ll fight for them if the dragons decide to keep them around

Also YOUR HONOUR ‼️

Goddd Iris you deceiving piece of shit, Drayden is going to feel like it’s his fault that the Dragons fused back together. Cause he was the one who told Iris about the DNA Splicers and trusted her with them. But he made a bad call and now he’s facing the consequences of his actions, even if no one can truly blame him in the end for trusting Iris, his own granddaughter

Also I like to think the Dragons let the six of them have their fun by causing chaos throughout Unova and getting back at those who have wronged their Hero and their chosen person. Idk what we’re gonna call Bianca, Cheren, and N. But yeah causing thunderstorms, heat waves, blizzards. All different kinds of weather that absolutely destroyed the ecosystems around Unova

Let me be self indulgent in our lil aus and say that the dragons got attached to the kids bc I'm such a sucker for found family stuff and while yeah at first they were just using them, they gradually got attached and went "y'know what... Yeah, if anything happens to them, we'll kill everyone else and Arceus right?" And the other two just agreed hahaha

Like idk, I always see the dragons listening to any of the kids even if it isn't their respective hero or chosen, cause their bonds are that close and strong na and it's also a bit terrifying cause no one could ever know who currently has which dragon with them, if one of them has all three, if one has two, if one has none, either way, the dragons are quick to head to their aid when they need them, as the kids had been there to help them achieve their goal of becoming the original dragon once again

And ouugghhhfhfhfh Drayden cbdmcbdn like imagine if Iris did get the Splicers while Drayden was away, when he was doing his Gym Leader duties. Iris got the Splicers, she met up with her friends and the dragons, and they finally fused all three of them. Standing before them now was Unova's Dragon, it's thunderous roar could be heard at every corner of Unova. Storms raged, a sudden heat was carried by the winds, and in some parts a bitter blizzard swept the lands. The Dragon stood tall, black and white and grey scales gleaming beneath the Unovan sun, eyes a gleaming purple, a crown like crest on its head; the Crowned Zenith. The Dragon crouched down to it's heroes, a sign of appreciation, his voice echoing within their minds, his thanks apparent, as he held his claws out for them, so see the world how he sees it from above, and they too shall see how it's like being a god.

And just chdmdb ough, the kids going on about their commands with the Dragon carrying them out, and feeling the absolute power just within their palms, it sent a shiver of delight down their spines. When they got to Opelucid, Drayden could only look up in fear and in disappointment in himself. He saw Iris with the original Dragon, a sordid smile on her face, as she commanded the Dragon to freeze Opelucid once more, letting the people know she's had enough of their hatred towards her. God imagine that breaking Drayden tho cjxksjfkd cause like imagine if he hears what Iris said, how the people never saw her as anything more than a child, how she will never be enough, and god that was such a shot at Drayden's heart; not only has he failed his family's purpose of guarding the Splicers, but he also failed his granddaughter, failed to help her when she needed him the most. And now he could only watch helplessly as Iris' eyes glowed ominously, her friends stood beside her, the Dragon behind them, waiting for Iris' commands.

[sparklyfaerie]

So I finally finished The Burning Shores. I liked the plotline, the villain was great, and there were some genuine high points.

I do have some thoughts though.

Spoilers under the cut.

The main plot was fantastic! A great exploration of how sick and twisted these egomaniacal psychopaths could become given enough time and resources. Londra genuinely made my skin crawl when I realised what he was after, and watching all those poor Quen he manipulated into his little cult was disturbing.

Seyka is a fantastic character. To me, she feels like what Aloy would have been if she'd been raised by the Nora tribe; headstrong, clever, compassionate, and proud of her tribe. There are parallels between the Quen and the Nora, even: Seyka's "I am of the Chosen People" line made me think of the Nora and their insular nature.

For me, the biggest problem with the DLC was the romantic subplot. It genuinely made me stop playing for a few days because of how much I didn't like it.

Aloy and Sekya have genuine chemistry. Unfortunately I'd been spoiled going in about the romance option at the end, so my perception of their relationship throughout the plot was coloured by that.

But they have a great dynamic... when the game isn't trying to force the romance.

Which is ultimately my main point of contention? The romance feels forced. Aloy has been Too Busy For This Shit™ since... well, her whole life. She was busy training for the Proving, then busy hunting down the Eclipse, then busy dealing with Hades, then Regalla, then the Zeniths...

She hasn't had time to sit and just... be, without some kind of life-or-death threat looming on the horizon. So to see her all her fretting over someone she just met feels off. Especially while dealing with a threat like Londra, while still being aware that Nemesis is coming...? Idk, I just rolled my eyes every time Aloy had one of her little monologues.

Not that I'm against the pairing. Like I said, they have chemistry! I think, given more time and some actual development between the two, and possibly placing the climax of a romantic subplot either just before or just after the final battle with Nemesis, it could have been really good. But with what we were given? I felt like I could only tell her that Aloy wasn't ready at the end; especially because it's not likely we'll see Seyka in Horizon 3, being a DLC character and all.

I've seen all the endings, and both the "not ready" and "too much" options feel like they could be canon. I'm not sold on the "yes" option.

I'm not disputing that Aloy has feelings for her, mind. They're very much there and it's very obvious. I just feel like it was a bit heavy-handed, and a bit of subtlty and a longer period of time for those feelings to grow naturally would have suited better.

Fighting the Horus was great though. 10/10 I hope we fight a Horus again.

[rosietrace]

*knocks on your window* Zenith's thoughts on JiUiAoRen??

HEHEHEHE, YOU BET >:)

Zenith Devi, Eccentric "nymph"

{ His opinion on: Jiyoon Lockhart }

Respects her! A friend of Tori's is a friend of his!

He likes that Jiyoon has a good relationship with Victoria and that the latter is making more friends (since during their childhood, they only really had each other).

He thinks that this... "Korean" or whatever it's called is super interesting. And if given the chance, he'd like to learn the language!

I feel like to help Jiyoon focus on her writing more, Zen would go to the nearest instrument and play whatever the fuck he wants in the most ✨elegant✨ way possible.

Though Jiyoon should probably stay clear of Zen when he's very pissed off. Specifically when it involves someone talking badly about her fellow pomefiore resident, Victoria.

Zen, despite not looking like it, is labeled as "astronomically violent" when someone offends him, or Tori. During his time in RSA he ended up earning the moniker of "skull cracker" for hospitalizing quite the number of students.

All in all, they'd get along really well! Just- Be sure not to get too close when observing Zen in "skull cracker" mode-

♛____________________________________♛

{ His opinion on: UiO }

Oh the chaos these two would cause-

Definitely an instant friendship when you put aside Zen's cautiousness when he first met them, alongside his... Judgemental nature-

When he found out they're equally as interested in Malleus and Victoria's dynamic, that was probably when the friendship started XD I guarantee you that they already have a manuscript for their fanfiction centering around them-

Unless the answers are personal, Zen will happily answer whatever questions UiO will ask! But hopefully she won't pry too much once he offhandedly mentions his mother during their conversation.

Its not that his mother was a bad person, moreso the fact that... He really misses her and doesn't really like being asked about her. So hopefully UiO will understand to not ask any questions regarding Ekta(his mother).

Any personal questions they might end up asking will end up being swept under the rug for a completely different topic. Outside of his mother, Zen keeps a lot of secrets and most of them are already known by Victoria.

But aside from that, 100/10 friendship ^^

♛_____________________________________♛

{ His opinion on: Aori }

Also gets along with him! Zen would even offer to help simplify any of the terms Victoria uses during his etiquette lessons with her.

Hell, maybe Zen would offer to help him practice some musical instruments! If Aori wants to, of course. No pressure from Zen whatsoever ^^

Zen likes it that there are more people in Victoria's life who doesn't see her as all that intimidating, just like him.

He finds it endearing on how much Aori admires her and regularly praises her because well- Zen's aware of the lack of praise she received when she was younger.

So for the most part, they get along really well and would gladly sing praises to Victoria-

♛_____________________________________♛

{ His opinion on: Miren Lockhart }

Man's was confused asf when he saw Miren try and avoid conversation with him and Vic-

But then Jiyoon explained that Miren has a specific reason on why he doesn't really like faes and suddenly it all makes sense.

At first, Zen didn't know how to feel about Miren. But he was unsurprisingly annoyed when he avoided conversation with Victoria. Reasons for disliking fae be damned, HE AIN'T EVEN A FAE AND JUST TRY AND TALK TO TORI FOR ONCE YOU LITTLE SHI-

Anyway- When he ended up stumbling upon Miren literally having a conversation with Malleus, a fae, man's was about to throw hands at the irony of it all.

Like- If you can talk to Malleus, you can talk to Zen's bestie, Miren XD

Much like Tori, Zen would try and approach Miren in a less intimidating way but ended up looking way more intimidating than Victoria in the process- creepy but menacing smiling

Hopefully they'll get along more, especially since they both got off on the wrong foot-

[dgaftilwedie]

EEEEEEEEHEHEHEHEHEHE u guyz have no idea how much i LOVE talking abt my music taste........... im into so many diff genres and im so annoying passionate abt it...........

all nereids beware by chiodos (thx kyle <3)

my fav album of all time is swan songs by hollywood undead but my fav current is drugs by destroy rebuild

ghost, deftones, pierce the veil, mindless self indulgence, my chemical romance, gaerea B))

there were so many.......... cannibal corpse got me into death metal n then into goregrind which is one of my fav genres ever, BTS got me into kpop, get scared n my chem got me into emo, deftones got me back into nu metal.........

them bones by alice in chains

ghost ofc.......... uhmmmm gaerea fer sure........ definitely mcr too

none LMFAO too poor

have u ever loved a band so much u converted religions. that's me with ghost (long story) (too hard to explain) (this is me being dramatic but also not really). i love the music so much and i love all the blatantly satanic themes. the story behind the band is so funny to me but in a good way. like it's just an evil italian church trying to spread the message of the devil. but it's also so much more than that. it's a direct callout to the toxicity of certain religions and the impact of having them pushed on you unwillingly. tobias forge is also just an incredible person and the ghouls are so near and dear to my heart.............

i haven't been listening to any newer albums recently X___X

also none LMFAO i've been mostly just listening to chiodos and destroy rebuild lately

i really don't like scene queen. first of all, SHE IS NOT SCENE!!!!! i try not to be a stickler when it comes to subcultures but you can't just market yourself as something you're not. especially if she makes "metal" music??? which, by the way, that is not metal. it's pop with a little screaming and electric guitar. there is a stark difference. i agree 1000% that we need more women in the scene, but she isn't doing metal or scene justice. and as someone who is like annoyingly passionate about this kind of stuff isn't just super frustrating 💀💀 idc if u like her music, im sure she's a lovely person, i just don't think she actually knows what music she's trying to make nor does she understand scene culture 👍👍

i don't know xD

there are none that really come to mind idk these questions are confusing

BTS i guess just for the fact that kpop has a really bad wrap n everyone is super judgemental when i say i like kpop. it's literally just music from a different country. sure the fans can be kinda weird but not all of us are bad?????

the obvious answer is ghost :3 they're my favorite band on the face of the fucking planet and i make sure everyone knows it but everyone expects them to be a lot harder cuz of their aesthetic and concept n shiet :3

ghost.......... they're like my only personality trait ok 🙄🙄

had to go deep diving for these next two........... ermmmm this love, this hate by hollywood undead

maybeeeee ijime, dame, zettai by babymetal :3

does the thirteen commandments zenith re-release art count

IT WON'T LET ME ADD ONE WITHOUT FUCKING UP MY NUMBERS

necrotwerker is a pretty good one

one hundred sleepless nights by ptv.............

literally anything brokencyde has ever made

my go to has been good-looking by suki waterhouse for a while butttttttt idk lolol

dis one is like my main playlist it has like all my fav songs on it (https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0LhT2xeRs32FhDclOIG0Iw?si=SSDswamgRz2IXZS12IzQ3Q&pi=u-fJP6CGcBTvuW)

I CAN'T THINK OF ANYYYYYYYYY

i can play the trumpet but there aren't many songs to "jam" too esp cuz i can't hear dick over it LMFAO also i haven't touched a trumpet since 2019

PROBABLY

CORPSE BRIDE COUNTS BUT ALSO I FUCKING LOVE HAMILTON

epicface B)

both :3 just depends on a lot of circumstances

i don't know what this means

yeah i would say so :D

nope :P

don't have any

awwwww fuck idk OH WAIT THE DRESDEN DOLLS SELF-TITLED i like that album cover a lot (OBVIOUSLY I DON'T AGREE WITH WHAT'S-HER-NAME'S VIEWS CUZ SHE'S A TERF OR SOMETHING)

nope

ghost has done so many covers i think like 1/3 of their discography is just covers :P phantomime is a dope ass ep solely bc it's all covers. they ANNIHILATED the cover of phantom of the opera in the best way possible. by far one of my fav covers they've ever done :3

a lot (i can't attach images without it messing up my numbers)

see above 🙄🙄🙄 (it was sativa by sarah skinner btw) (i skipped cattle decapitation, suicide silence, and dethklok for this)

music ask game but it came straight out of my caffeinated brain on a wednesday morning

there’s just one rule : send some into me before you reblog!!

1. what is your favorite song. right now. tell me.

2. what is your favorite album. tell me rn.

3. who is your favorite artist or band? if you’re like me, just give your top 3 or 5.

4. what band started it all for you?

5. shuffle your playlist!!! what’s the first song that plays?

6. what bands/artists do you want to see in concert?

7. what bands/artists have you seen in concert?

8. tell me about your favorite band. go on infodump for me.

9. what’s an album that JUST came out and it’s been on repeat for like 6 days +?

10. what’s a song that literally just came out and you’ve had it on repeat forever?

11. tell me about your least favorite band or artist. go on scream about why you hate them.

12. what is one song that has irreparably damaged your social skills?

13. what is one album that has irreparably damaged your social skills?

14. what is one artist that has irreparably damaged your social skills?

15. what is one band/artist you listen to and everybody knows you listen to them but no one would expect them to have THAT genre?

16. what is one band/artist you listen to that everyone knows you for?

17. what song in your playlist sounds like this 💖❤️🥰🤩💘💕 but the lyrics are 🖤🩸⛓💣🗡🪨

18. what song in your playlist sounds like this 🖤🩸⛓💣🗡🪨 but the lyrics are 💖❤️🥰🤩💘💕

19. what is your favorite album art from one of your favorite artists?

20. SHOW ME A PICTURE OF ONE OF YOUR FAVORITE ARTISTS. RIGHT NOW. I NEED TO SEE THEM.

21. what’s the weirdest song title you can think of right now.

22. i just saw the prettiest motorcycle on the way to school tell me one song you’d blast on a motorcycle while driving one

23. what’s a song that makes you feel like a hot badass?

24. what’s a song you cry to?

25. show me your favorite playlist!!!!! what are some songs on it?????

26. show me two songs with the same title!!! same genre?? different genre??

27. if you can play any instrument, what’s your favorite song to jam to??

28. DO YOU LIKE SHOWTUNES???(((

29. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MUSICAL)?????

30. describe your music taste in one word

31. are you a lyric analyzer or do you just listen for fun. 🫣

32. pretty vinyls or 180 gram vinyls?

33. DO YOU COLLECT CDS????

34. DO YOU COLLECT VINYLS??(((

35. show me your prettiest vinyl🥰

36. show me your favorite cd case or booklet :)

37. DO U HAVE ANY NEAT RECORD COVERS??

38. did one of your favorite bands/artists do a cover???? tell me about it!!!

39. how much do you love music? describe to me in one image.

40. shuffle your playlist and the fifth song—describe it in one image.

[wetbloodworm]

thinking about how zenith didn't get caught by his last party until cobwynn cast Detect Evil & Good, while some of his current party is already discussing the weird bad not-dreams, and i think it really boils down to just. lack of communication.

vinzin is quiet and doesn't talk much, and he's the stoic type who doesn't like to complain or let others know when he's having a rough time. he was definitely puzzled by not-dreams but he'd be fine once he woke up, if a little rattled, so he figured it wasn't a big deal. he also wasn't very familiar with magic, not enough to determine that what was happening was unnatural.

wiris is more talkative than vinzin, though not by much, but more importantly she is more of the loner type. she was traveling with the party kind of as an experiment, to see how she liked it. she isn't big on opening up to others. she figured there was something odd about the not-dreams, but couldn't figure out WHAT it was. and none of the others were talking about having the same experience. might've lightly pried like oh hey how did you all sleep last night? fine? okay cool me too, anyway.

cobwynn WAS talkative but also like... very full of themself while simultaneously trying real hard to prove themself. they were the baby of the group and the only one who hadn't done ANY adventuring before this, and they were presenting themself as competent and confident. they didn't want to be like 'guys i had a bad dream :(' and they really didn't want to ask the others about it if they couldn't come into the conversation with answers. they knew enough to realize this was some kind of magic or something at work, and did a bit of research when they'd stop in towns with auguries or libraries or the like and they had some free time. it wasn't that pressing of an issue to them since it happened less than once a week and didn't affect them much beyond being deeply unpleasant. it started getting more pressing when it started happening more often, after vinzin and wiris left the party and zenith had no other options for snacks when they weren't staying in inns. again, not really impeding them at all, but still unpleasant! but idk if they ever figured it out. if they DID bring it up with zenith he'd just lie and say he had those not-dreams too.

(did they make the connection when they figured out the aberration thing? not sure! they were smart, and aberrations have historically been bad news so they were instantly deeply distrusting and hostile and trying to figure out what zenith's game was. would they make that leap? idk! gotta consider that more!)

so basically no one ever talked about it so zenith just got to fly under the radar. the fact that THIS group is more communicative is. fun. for me. lmao

[cyanogen-miasma]

Beetle actually has a normal name on her birth certificate which was given to her by her birth parents before she was taken by the Dark Scientists

(I don't think I've mentioned before but the Dark Scientists are a secret research group that does biological research on prisoners that they keep in their facility. Bjorn was a lab tech there before realizing how bad it was when Vincent was taken, then left to start his quest of rescuing his nephew and bringing down the organisation. Jake was also held there and tested on for 22 years before escaping)

Jake is very annoyed to find out this information when science gang find Beetle's birth certificate. Beetle is, of course, confused. I don't know how old she would be when she finds out her legal name isn't 'Beetle', but certainly old enough to recognise 'Beetle' as her name

side note Jake called her Beetle because when she was a baby her hair grew in a way that looked to him like beetle antenna. He had just escaped from the facility at that point and was not in a great mental state so forgive him for not being so considerate to his surprise daughter. Other names include "the Beast" and "vile creature", although he stopped calling her those when she was old enough to understand what the words meant, and Bjorn pointed out that it was quite cruel to go around calling your own daughter "vile".

At this point I'm not sure how, after finding Beetle's birth parents, that Jake was able to keep her, as I think her birth parents would want her back, and Jake wouldn't really strike a pair of strangers as a responsible parent...perhaps Beetle decides by pining after her adopted dad after being separated from him, giving her birth parents a really hard decision to make....would be terrible for them, but alas, they are not the main characters!

I promise Jake is a functional parent lmaooo

Bjorn is the second dad, and definitely appears as a much more responsible parent to Beetle, and of course, Helga, Damien and Vincent are also very close to Beetle, it's not really the same as a nuclear family structure with two parents and a kid. Jake can get away with being a bit goofy as there are a grand total of 4 (four) other adults in the house (Vincent only shares the house with Beetle for three years until turning 18; he is 25 at 'present-day') who play a role in Beetle's upbringing

I only really pinpoint Jake as the primary parent because he is the one who initially rescued her from the facility and looked after her, even as he himself was disoriented from his own incarceration and escape. The two were alone for a good few months before Bjorn and Zenith (Jake's older sister, idk if I mentioned her already) found them. So Beetle bonded to him, as babies do, and for quite a few years considered Bjorn less of a father to her than Jake. She doesn't think that anymore, and similarly holds her other housemates in high regards (Damien is an 'uncle' to her)

I think Beetle's legal name is something completely innocuous and 'normal' (although I don't think 'Beetle' is very egregious in the Cyanverse) but causes a lot of contention when she is addressed by it. School is for sure taxing on her, and I think the school staff are very suspicious of Jake...to be honest I think everyone in Xerexes is suspicious of Jake apart from a very close circle of people who know what happened to him

like (to be clear it is a combination of prejudices against these traits that make people suspicious of Jake, I'm not trying to say that the traits are inherently suspicious)

> ethnic minority (half-draconine, it's a whole thing that I won't get into here but I'll just say they are/were quite discriminated against in Xerexes specifically)

> few qualifications (Jake missed prime educational years while in the facility so he doesn't really have a lot of opportunities, Zenith sort of 'employs' him by showing him the ropes of mechanical engineering and letting him help out at her garage but it isn't formal and she doesn't have the qualifications to say it's an apprenticeship or anything)

> mentally ill (not beating around the bush. Jake has quite heavy PTSD from the whole experience in the facility, manifesting itself in large memory gaps and psychotic episodes. I think he may also have an underlying disorder unrelated to his experience at the facility which also causes him to act a bit off-kilter, but I don't know which one. I will monitor his behaviour [???] and diagnose accordingly to the best of my ability. he definitely has anger issues though. and a very specific angst caused by a very specific thing that happens to him as a result of experiments in the facility...)

> visibly scarred (speaks for itself. more ableism)

> dresses in alt fashion (the way I usually draw him is quite vanilla [I live with my parents] but I imagine he goes crazy with clothes sometimes in a way that...pushes boundaries to say the least)

> lead pipe (only valid reason to be scared of Jake)

it's half past ten at night and I've derailed my own post...what was it about? Beetle's birth name? well now it's about Xerexian prejudices and how they combine to give Jake specifically a bad time!!! Yippee!

[hua-fei-hua]

i know that a lot of the times, soulmate aus are rlly amatonormative n stuff, but years ago when i had a stint in voltron, i read a soulmate au where everyone had a soulmate, but they weren’t necessarily romantic. like sometimes you were meant to be best friends, or sometimes they were familial bonds or smth n i was like “wait you can do that w/soulmate aus???”

personally, i really really like the idea of a soulmate au where your soulmate changes through time as you both grow and change. like you have a soulmate out there (again, not necessarily romantic), as in the person with which you get along best, who matches your soul like that, but if neither of you put in the work to keep things that way, your soulmate can change.

i think that would put a lot of the romanticism into the work it takes to love someone, and how to love someone is most often a choice we have to make over and over again, and i just think that’s lovely